This has been a very rough year for me. I lost a hero in January. I only knew him for the last several years, but his impact on my life will last a life time. As many of you know I am going through some serious trials in my marriage right now. It would seem with all that going on that it would be hard for me to be thankful. I still have three wonderful children. I watch as they grow into adulthood, and I am so proud of each and every one of them. I have a loving family that has stood by me through all my failings and triumphs. I still have a decent job, and a decent place to live. When you have been to the places I have, and seen the things I have then you learn to be thankful for more of the little things in life. I have a great church. Even though I have only recently begun attending they have welcomed me and made me feel truly at home. There are a lot of little things in my life that I can still be thankful for in this difficult time in my life, but the things I am most thankful for are so much bigger than all of that.
I am thankful that I have a faithful God. When I have been my most unfaithful to him, he remains steadfast and loyal. He has never stop pursuing me. He has never given up on me. I was born into rebellion against him, and yet he love me and has drawn me to him. I have run from him so many times, and yet he has stood with his arms open wide waiting for me to return. When I was at my worst, he sent his son to live a perfect human life and die a sacrificial death to atone for all of my failings. He is in control of all the problems of my life. He is using all of my struggles to make me more and more like him. He accepts my failings, but he loves me too much to leave me that way. He is familiar with my heartaches, and he comforts me. When I am too weak to carry on, then he gives me strength to move forward. He has chosen me as his own before the foundations of the earth. He hasn't chosen me because of who I am, but he has chosen me because of who he is. He hasn't chosen me because he needs me, but he has chosen me because I desperately need him. He is the lion of the tribe of Judah, and all the battles that I can never win, he will conquer them for me. He has sent his comforter as a constant presence in my life. I have so many things that I could feel sad about today, but in light of all that God has done for me, it just seems silly to reflect on those things. God has given so much more than I could ever deserve, and for that I am forever thankful.