I'll never know how much it cost, to see my sin upon that cross.
That is a line from the Chris Tomlin song "Here I Am To Worship". We sang it tonight at Church. When we sang that line, I nearly broke down. There is so much truth in that. I have been reading the A.W. Tozer book Knowledge of the Holy. If you read that book, and then think about this line, then I am sure you might have a similar reaction. I can talk at length about the power and wisdom of God, but it truly means nothing when faced with the reality if all that God is. When I talk about the King of the Universe humbling himself and becoming a helpless baby, there is a dimension of that idea that is beyond the grasp of human imagination. When I talk about God Almighty hanging on a cross for the sins of the world, there are not words that can fully capture all that means to us. We will truly never know how much it cost, until it is revealed to us in heaven. We simply haven't words that can paint an accurate picture of the amazing act of God. When we try to describe the mercy of God, it is like trying to paint the Sistine Chapel with finger paint. The limited knowledge we have of God is only what he has chosen to reveal to us through his Spirit. Our fragile human minds will never be able to grasp all that God is, and so we will just never be able to fully appreciate what an amazing act it was for him to humble himself, and to die on the cross for our sins. I am not sure that we can ever really understand in words fully how far we were from God when he drew us to him. At the heart of all of our sin is pride. We were born believing that we will make a better God than God will. In our sin we place our self on a throne that does not belong to us. We were acting in rebellion against God. We took up arms and revolted against the same God that breathe into us the breath of life. Everything that we are, and everything that we can be was found only in God. We had taken the good gifts of God, and used them to exalt ourselves. Even after all that, the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords veiled his divinity and became a man. He walked on this earth. He suffered like a man. He was tempted like a man. However, he never sinned. He was obedient to the will of the Father even onto his death. A death that was a disgrace to everyone who suffered it. The God of the Universe, the I AM God, did that in order to bring us into a right relationship with Him. It is an amazing thing. We will never know fully how much that cost him. It is a great and dear price that he paid for each and every one of us. Wow. That is all I can say. I never thought that I was worth such a fuss! Did you think you were worth all that?