It is no secret that a lot of stuff is a mess in my life right now. I can't afford to dwell on that right now. I need to focus on the blessings I do have. I have three amazing kids. They are growing to become awesome individuals. I have a great paying job. I have refound my love for writing. I had three Christian musicians ask me to review their music. That was awesome. I have found an amazing Spirit-filled Church. I have refound my faith. I had wandered from God, but I am back seeking him everyday. I have family and friends that love me. They are all praying for me. I have an amazing God. He never gave up on me. I was weak and spineless. I had abandoned him. He stood by me, and waiting for me to return to him.
I would love to change a lot of things that have happened in the last few months. It has been very painful. It still remains painful at times. I am growing though. God is teaching me to trust him. I am loving being in his arms. I don't know where I am going, but it will be better than here. I am so thankful that he was faithful, when I was not. I want nothing more than to stay right by his side forever. If I spend the rest of my life with only God, then I will be just fine. Today was a great day. I got so much done. I feel so good. I have to wake every morning and make a conscious decision to see the silver linings. I may be in the midst of a crazy storm, but God is my umbrella. I am loving being near him. He sustains me in a way I never thought possible. If I had turned to him in my first divorce, things would have been so different. I can do this. I will be just fine. I am more than a conqueror! If I have God, then what else could I possibly need? It is nice right where I am. I am will wait on him for the next steps, and then will move me closer and closer to the sun breaking through the clouds. I will love the feel of the warm sunshine of the sun on my face.