Tuesday, January 14, 2014

What Do I Have Be Thankful For?

It is no secret that a lot of stuff is a mess in my life right now.  I can't afford to dwell on that right now.  I need to focus on the blessings I do have.  I have three amazing kids.  They are growing to become awesome individuals.  I have a great paying job.  I have refound my love for writing.  I had three Christian musicians ask me to review their music.  That was awesome.  I have found an amazing Spirit-filled Church.  I have refound my faith.  I had wandered from God, but I am back seeking him everyday.  I have family and friends that love me.  They are all praying for me.  I have an amazing God.  He never gave up on me.  I was weak and spineless.  I had abandoned him.  He stood by me, and waiting for me to return to him.

I would love to change a lot of things that have happened in the last few months.  It has been very painful.  It still remains painful at times.  I am growing though.  God is teaching me to trust him.  I am loving being in his arms.  I don't know where I am going, but it will be better than here.  I am so thankful that he was faithful, when I was not.  I want nothing more than to stay right by his side forever.  If I spend the rest of my life with only God, then I will be just fine.  Today was a great day.  I got so much done.  I feel so good.  I have to wake every morning and make a conscious decision to see the silver linings.  I may be in the midst of a crazy storm, but God is my umbrella.  I am loving being near him.  He sustains me in a way I never thought possible.  If I had turned to him in my first divorce, things would have been so different.  I can do this.  I will be just fine.  I am more than a conqueror!  If I have God, then what else could I possibly need?  It is nice right where I am.  I am will wait on him for the next steps, and then will move me closer and closer to the sun breaking through the clouds.  I will love the feel of the warm sunshine of the sun on my face.

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